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Thursday, September 23, 2010

apresiasi | cinta | hati | running | coming |

me..

always run from love..

always..



me..

always ignored what they want..

always..


me..

always hates falling in love..

always..


me..

always hard to accept somebody in life..

always..


me..

always try to accept whoever want to know me..

always..


because..
it's gonna hurt a lot..



the far i run..
the closer it is comes..



how can define love..?
how can i feel love..?


YA ALLAH.. U have opened my heart..
is he my true love..
i hope he is..
we pray for that..


he is truly understanding..
he is very honest..
he makes me smiling every second..


am i belong to him?

is it my destiny?

at Allah's house we met..

i am deeply feel so calm..

Syukran.. for this present..makes me smiling again... thank you..

epilog | cinta | hati | redha |




there 3 types of love destiny..

1..

destiny by Satan
you two get to know each other
holding hands and continue to do sins
Finally she was pregnant
then,you both just got married


2

detiny by jin
you likes her
but she does not love you
you use jin and spell her for you and she likes you
and finally you get married


3

destiny by God
you both see each other then through to the heart
you continue to propose her
and she received your proposal
and you both get married
Allah willing lasting until the end of life
this is called SYURGA CINTA..

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | tak | faham |

once again,,

lying,,

tipu

tipu

tipu

dan

tipu..

teruslah menipu..

semoga tipu boleh membawa kamu ke syurga..

*bengong


merayu

merayu

merayu

dan trus merayu,,


masih..


*bengong

kama wasn't kama..

kama was him..

perfect lying..



kali ni berharap sgt..

last time was also


berharap sgt..


next will still the same..

berharap sgt..

haha..


nk aje aku nyanyi lg skali...

lagu so7 plak..

aku berhenti berharap..
sampai nanti suatu saat..
x ada cinta ku dapat..

epilog | cinta | hati | MUH |

jgn terangkn ape yg kamu fhm,.,,

ckup la..


sudahlah..

aishh,,, nk aje aku pegi karok lagu MUH,,,

cukuplah sudahlah sampai disini saja hubungan kita berdua..
uuwooaaaaaaaa waoooooa waooooooo waaoooooooo...!

dua hati yg x mungkin bersatu uwaooo

berbezaa kau dan jua aku.

uwaooo aooo...

epilog | cinta | hati | kama |

korg nk bace bace la..

nak percaye ke xnk terserah..

org ckp, dgr xpe,peercaya jgn..
cume hati ni nk bercerita pd yg x memahami..


To,

kawan.. cukup2 la memback up..

xde maknanye lg dh..

peluang dh byk kali di beri..


nk brape lori lg?

16 lori?

ckup2 la... aku ni bkn pnyabar sgt.. slagi ak blh sbr, ak sbr..
sdh2 la.. kang x pasal2 angin dtg blik..

jgn nk pkir die je ek kwn...
die pn tau ak ni bkn pnybr..

ak ni cpt lupe..
die pn tau aku ni salu lupe..

ak ni bkn ambik tahu pasal die pon...
die pon tahu ak x ambil tahu pasal die..

aku ni mmg buruk la dpn die kwn weh..
utk ape lg ni cari aku?

komplain mcm biase..
sntiase ade..


aku x salu msj die
aku x lyn die mcm org lain lyn pkwe die
aku bukan snang2 nk ckp yg aku syg seseorang..
die pon tau aku xsuke sbut perkataan 2..
tp ble dh disebut2..manusia..mudah lupa..
then.. die ingt mybe aku sggup mati utk die ke?
die pon x sanggup letih dtg cni? apakah lg mati sbb aku?
haha... jgn ckp kalo x mampu..
jgn janji kalo xsanggup..

aku bukan kekasih yang sempurna nk melayan layan ni...


*aku tau aku x hensem, sbb 2 ko xnk aku..

*aku sanggup pegi sana semata2 nk tgk ko..

*please dina please please.. bkn pluang skali ni jek lg.. skali ni jek..

*mmg la.. aku kne la pilih yg lawa2,.. sbb bnde ni nti effect kt anak2 aku..

*bgusla..jgn nk kate ddiri awk salu btul..

*kalo x rase xleh nk pgg 2 nom. jgn beli.. membazir..ps* mmg la aku guna duit kau kn..?huhu.. kecian..

*xpk ea?ok, mean kalo dh lame dh nti, ko xkn lgsg ingt yg ko ade pkwe ke x? so, better ko ckp,lepaskan aku k..aku lpaskan..n then aku juz kate bye2..

*xpham ke?..ckp jela break.snang

*sy juz znk awk trus sakit hati krn sy.sbb 2 sy lpaskn awk ..

then ckp

* aku rujuk ko blik.. mak aiii,,... murah benau aku..


mitak maaf byk2.. ingt la blik ape yg awk ckp..jgn nk ingtkn sy pd jnji2 manis awk..
ingt ape yg awk dh sakitkn hati sy..ingt dh brape kali aawk menangis krn sy.. xpenat ke nangis? ak pon pernah nangis sbb ko.. sekeras2 aku.. aku ni perempuan brader.. so sudahla ye.. pegila ingt blik kekasih2 kamu yg selalu kamu ingati.. InsyaALLAH.. kamu akan dpt pasangan yang kamu idamkan..yg boleh layan kamu mcm org lain layan pkwe die.. trime kasih byk2.. last ni sy explain... kalox fhm jgk xtau la aku nk ckp mcm mne lg dh.. aku ckp elok2 ni.. tnpa perasaan mrh.. u said that, u got what u want..

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | newdays |

before the sunset..
there was sunrise..

I wake to see a sky smiling at me,
a mockingbird serenading a song...sardonically.
The sun's climbing above the old red barn,

*sigh*

*deep breath*

feeling very..


calm..


peaceful..


so warm..

thinking nothing..



The sun climbs higher in the sky.
It's light shimmering and warm.
All things now are clearly seen.
A new day has been born.

Monday, September 20, 2010

apilog | cinta | hati | snack |

crazy..

when people said..

we break..okay.. but, just for a moment..

palehotakdie..

masuk di akal kah?

then nak pjuk2 blik manis giler..
perghhh... cair kot..

brader... kalo dh break.. lu ingt gua ni ape??
kit kat?? [take a break with kit kat]


ke ape?? blh order kt drivethrough??

suare mesin: welcome to mcdonald..may i take ur order sir?

customer: yea..sure... please give me a glass of dina's heart..
then a bucket of dina's love..

suare mesin: that all sir??

customer : one more thing,do you have.. the ice cool of dina's care put some oreo on it..

suare mesin: oraip.. u can pay now on the next pit stop..thanx for coming.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | tawar |

"Once upon a time I was falling in love,
but now I'm only falling apart."


"Don't cry because it's over,
smile because it happened."


sudah ludah..jangan dijilat balik ye..



forget about me

forget about pass

forget about us

forget about everything..


leave me alone..
no more tears u will find..
no more loneliness u will feel..

go away.. leave me alone..

i am heart breakers.. ooh yess.. absolutely right..

epilog | cinta | hati | rainbow |

no tears..

no loves..

no dream..

no heart..

no feeling..

no regret..


after u said that..

so??
u already decided it..

so??
it is already done..

so??
done is done..


peace**

wink* wink* wink*

byebye.. no more sakit hati...

"lantak" laa kn..?
u said it..

enough is enough..

TOUCH n GO..

it is rainy outside..
just for a moment..
then..

rainbow comes..

to make my life as happy as before..

Saturday, September 18, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | so | hard |

hai.. kawan.. i need help.. and please do comment..

if u're in my shoes..

its begun like this..

a man, said love u, need u..
trying
so hard
very hard

just to have me,..

then,

*terpaku..

he's trying so long for that..

after have been
di caci
di maki

at first, he is
very understanding
very gentle..

then..

*terdiam..

change lil bit..

comes another man..

with a big heart

said d same thing
want to wait for u
till u come
love n need

for sure
i want to meet ur mom..
asap

just like d first man..

damn.

*terbisu..



question:

1) a man always like diz ke?

2) a man do love someone using heart or nafsu?

3) a man when they now that the girl love him too, then he will change..is it?

epilog | cinta | hati | shoes |

Can I draw my own life with my own color pencils, please?

I've grown up. I have my own wings too. Can I fly by myself just once, please?

:(

I hate it when people start to plan for my life and my future. This is MY LIFE! I know they care and they love me, that's why they plan everything accordingly for me. But have they ever thought if this is really what I want?


I am tired. If you really think I'm still "the forever lil'girl", do consider to put your feet on my shoes.. and you'll know how tough it's to be that "lil girl" in your eyes.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | mistakes |

...

epilog | cinta | hati | "ah" |

darah



berdarah



biarlah



diarah



mengarah



terserah



diserah



dikerah



diperah



dimarah



diterjah



merah



merekah



parah



sudah


.
.
.
.
.
.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | terhalang |

hati x tenang...


bagai....



air milo ais yg di kacau pekat bersama iceberg yg mulai cair......

kemudian


di kisar menggunakn blender..



di tuang..


ke dalam satu gelas besar...



gulpp... diminum dgn nikmatnye..

while thinking..

what should i do..?

Monday, August 30, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | goodnight |

selamat malam..

TERPUTIK 2O RAMADHAN 30 OGOS..

=.=' zzzzzzzZZZ

Sunday, August 29, 2010

epilog | cinta | hati | finally | at last |

khuatir..

thinking..

happy sometimes..

campur aduk..?

jiwa kacau?

hurmm.. finally it is over..

when...

dia



terdiam..



terpaku..



dan membisu lagi..




at last..
aku sayang kau,..
forever.. done..

mission accomplished..

he won..

congrates.. \(^-^)/

without a mask,
making little sense of
what is being said
and what is being done
i wander round and round

Be a world to someone and help them smile
Life is all about helping others
Make their stay beautiful and worthwhile!
After all they are your sisters and brothers!

Oh wary heart of mine..Rise and Shine!

epilog | cinta | hati | sincerely |

aku sayang kau

epilog | cinta | hati | udah | udahla | tu |

cinta?

is it exist?

keep mencari cinta hati?

no.. i will never mencari it..

just let it be..
and wait..
till it comes to u,,

yea... that it is..

now u're awake.. congrates..
lucky u..

epilog | cinta | hati | only | if |

only if..

said,

aku cinta kau sampai mati

said,

aku perlukan kau

said

aku mahukan kau

said,

aku nak kau sorang.. sampai mati..sampai mati pon kau sorang je..

then, said,..

in the eyes

i see shadow..

impossible..

Someone told me

I should take Caution

when it comes to love

I did, I did

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be



hushhhhhhhh...

dont say nothing..

enough babe,.

epilog | cinta | hati | keras |

hati keras?
keras hati?

alaa.. perempuan.. sekeras keras kerak nasi~

huh?
keras ke~?

kamu..

kamu..

kamu..

across my mind

who knows?

no one knows..

.S.T.O.P.

okay...
it will be alright..
he will forget anything about you..

WHAT?? HE?????

OMG..

HE?

HE???

HE?????

for sure..

u r in ****

whaT??

NEVER..

stop it sihati keras.

xnk.lepaskn je.. ramai lg yg lain.. T-T

shame on u..sihati keras..

u r not just only u here in this world..

it is okay..



terdiam..

membisu..




*although it is not okay at all..

epilog | cinta | hati | kaku |

hati membeku

terkaku

membisu

terdiam

hey.. shut up..

leave me alone?
why?
bcoz i am a loner..
but..
how long can u stand it?

i am strong..
are u?
sure?

are u really + very + so sure bout that?

i don't know..
but..

what is this feeling?

im not sure..
yeaa sure..

u just lost ur mind loner..

am i?

hurmm...

terpaku...

terdiam...

membisu...

please.. slap me..

untill i am awake..

epilog | cinta | hati | blind | spot |

huh? epilog cinta? hati plak 2??

blind spot? bawk kete xde lesen..motor apakah lg..

are you in love?

no way.. what the hell are u talking about..

what if..
it is?
is it any possiblity?

arhh...it is impossible..
look at ur self..
who u r..?

who am i?
what..?

is it wrong?
tell me if is it really wrong?

yeaahh.. it is wrong.
no..but..

hey.. are u?

lost ur mind?

epilog | cinta | hati | go | away |

terbisu_______

diam membisu

bcoz i have nothing to say
bcoz i shouldn't say anything
bcoz i dont't want to say anything..
bcoz silent is the louder screaming..

pergi..

jauh...

jgn jauh sgt*

wth?

no..juz go...go away..
it is ok..

is it really ok?

yeahh...im doing fine..

Friday, August 27, 2010

| impossible |

hai..2:15 am.. i can't sleep yet...so..what can i do to make me fall asleep?
i just love to listen to this song.. its meaningful.. such a beautiful melody..

Shontelle - Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them


Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did..

Thursday, August 26, 2010

| Me | Myself | I |

coming out of the shadows
of the past and reaching
to the light that is now
shining in its glory
i realized i am standing all alone,
with the whole world at my disposal;

i searched, i needed somebody
to continue the exploration,
or so i thought; how
naive and so dumb one can become;

wasting precious time
doing nothing other
than wandering through life
i became more confused than before;

unable to run anymore,
i sat down to take stock
and i realized i got
me, myself and i;

learned a lot along the way,
and now my very own best friend
exploring uncharted territories
me myself and i
that’s all i got in the end
that’s what i found out
me, myself and i;

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

where | is | the | love |

where is the love?
where is the love comes from?

why.. am i grown up?
why.. am i here?

what.. i have to do?
what.. i shouldn't do?

watch diz people..its getting serious now.. nauzubillah hi min zalik..



what can you see?
which part of sense u use to see?
how u feel it?
have you ever imagine?

lets check diz out..




how?
is it true is there any "manusia berhati binatang"
or.."binatang is more berhati then manusia"

khalifah..back to fitrahNYA,,,
im just sharing..
sorry if is there any mistake that i did..
yang baik itu datangnya dari ALLAH S.W.T...
and yang kurang baik itu datangnya dari my own mistake..
juz for renungan bersama..

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

tears of my | heart |

last few years...when the love was g.o.n.e.

i realize that.. i feel |e.m.p.t.y|...sometimes..
i realize that.. i'm nobody..
i realize that.. i will never been here, if THEY were never been together..
i realize that.. their love have never ever been replaced..

i feel that my life is not like others..

i was wondering... why was it's ends up like this?
i was wondering... why it should ends up like this?
i was wondering... is there any other ways to make THEM still together?
i was wondering... how can i live when they were not been together anymore?


then.. its getting even more worse..


until... D day comes...
until... i feel likes can i run from all this stupid idiot things?
until... i feel THEY don't love me..
until... i don't know where else to go..


then.. im trying to escape..
then.. im alone..
then.. i have nobody...
then.. im trying to understand..
adults,im too young to understands all that at that time..
look into my eyes..its hurt..its killing me..


every.. morning before i go to school..
THEY dry my hair
THEY give"bekal"sandwish.burger.nasilemak.roticanai.& more.cooked by my mom..
THEY ask me too don't be naughty..

every.. night before i fall asleep..
THEY chat with me..
THEY turn off the light..
THEY blanket my body..
THEY put my bears around me..until i fall asleep..

now i know..there are..

no more.. dinner time together..
no more.. minum petang with ikan celup tepung my mom..
no more.. picnic at beach...
no more.. blik kampung with THEM..


is the love really gone??

Monday, August 16, 2010

umi | mama | mak | ibu | mother |

selamat hari ibu 2010....wlpn dh lps.. =D

you better watch this guys... so sweet..

Friday, August 13, 2010

butterfly | me

slowly waking up from the
fantasy of a dream
my hand searches in vain
for the dream to be a reality

dreams are like a flower
only when they bloom
we realize how wonderful it can be!
or how horrible its going to be!

i sit upon a dream
patiently waiting for it to bloom
nurtured it for a long time,
with all things good!

time, i have spent!
love, i have given lots of!
hope, i have infused into it!
confidence, i have plenty of it!

from a cocoon that i built around myself
i changed into a beautiful little butterfly
waiting to soar into the light of the day
taking my dream along with me!

perched on the flower
that is now my dream,
i wait for it to bloom
to seal my fate – life or death!


Antara Khinzir dan Kekasih

Sejauh manakah kita umat akhir zaman ini menyedari hal ini. Antara yang “nampak berat” dan yang “nampak ringan”.

“Bergomolan dengan babi (khinzir) itu adalah lebih baik berbanding dengan bersentuhan (secara sengaja) dengan wanita yang bukan mahram.” Riwayat Ibnu Majah.


Perkongsian: Mengapa bukan kamu yang bercouple dengan dia?

source: cari sendiri

Semasa saya memberikan perkongsian di Sekolah Menengah Agama Swasta Kampung Laut di Terengganu, salah seorang pelajar perempuan dia sana telah melontarkan soalan:

“Bagaimana ya saya nak menegur kawan perempuan saya yang bercouple?”

Saya tersenyum. Saya soal semula kepada dia:

“Kamu bercouple tak dengan kawan perempuan kamu itu?”

Eh? Saya tersengih. Mesti dalam kepala dia, dia fikir pelik. Hilal Asyraf suruh orang jadi lesbian ke? Haa… tersilap la kalau fikir macam itu.

Apakah maksud saya?



Couple dan lompong kasih sayang

Mengapa bercouple?

Jatuh cinta. Mungkin itu satu jawapan yang popular.

Tetapi bagaimana boleh sampai bercouple? Pastinya ada ‘tragedi’ orat mengorat.

Apa yang ada dalam seni mengorat ni? Ungkapan-ungkapan sayang, hadiah-hadiah yang mengisi kasih, momen-momen indah yang tak dapat dilupakan, ambil berat dan pemberian perhatian, serta banyak lagi perkara yang didahagakan oleh fitrah manusia.

Itulah dia yang membawa kepada bersatunya dua manusia di atas nama couple. Apabila berada di alam couple, berganda-gandalah lagi keindahan itu. Setiap kali birthday disambut dan diingati, hadiah-hadiah sempena hari-hari tertentu pasti menghadiri, bertanya khabar dan mengambil berat satu sama lain, ungkapan-ungkapan cinta ala-ala rome dan juliet yang mampu mencairkan hati dan sebagainya yang menghiasi dunia mereka menjadi indah.

Mengapa seseorang itu bercouple?

Kerana lompong kasih sayang yang wujud di dalam jiwa mereka terisi.

Di sinilah timbul persoalan.

Kalau anda tidak suka kawan anda bercouple, mengapa bukan anda yang mengisi lompongan yang ada di dalam jiwa mereka itu?


Bila suci tak dijaga, bila kotor dihina-hina

Kita ini hakikatnya tidak cinta dengan sahabat kita secinta-cintanya. Kita tak ambil berat fasal dia. Tanya khabar pun tidak. Ungkap sayang jauh sekali. Hadiah jangan cerita la, lagi tak diberi. Birthday pun tak tahu bila hari. Berjumpa pun tak bertukar senyum. Peluk kasih pun tidak pernah.

Kemudian bila sahabat kita terjerumus ke lembah kekotoran, menumpang kasih kepada manusia yang hendak memberikannya kasih, kita menghina-hinanya.

Persoalan sekarang, mengapa sampai dia perlukan kasih sayang orang lain sampai dah tak kenal halal haram?

Kerana kita, sahabatnya yang halal ni, tak mengisi kehidupannya.

Bagaimana ukhuwwah kita dengannya? Adakah kita telah memenuhi hak-hak mereka? Adakah kita membina jambatan hati antara jiwa mereka dengan kita? Adakah kita mendoakannya?


Apabila wujud keakraban

Posibiliti untuk seseorang itu bercouple apabila lompong kasih sayang di dalam jiwanya telah terisi adalah sangat tipis.

Tetapi masih ada juga yang telah kita berikan kasih sayang, dan dia juga merasa kasih kepada kita, tetapi dia bercouple. Masih ada. Bukan saya kata tidak ada.

Namun ada beza. Ada beza antara dia bercouple dan kita tidak akrab dengannya, dan dia bercouple dalam keadaan kita akrab dengannya. Bezanya adalah, kita lebih mudah hendak menegurnya. Kita lebih mudah hendak menyedarkannya. Hal ini kerana, kita dengan dia, saling kasih mengasihi. Kita adalah sahabatnya yang terbaik.

Kita memberikannya hadiah semasa hari lahirnya, kita caring dengannya, kita ungkapkan sayang kita kepadanya, kita belanja dia makan, kita sentiasa bersama dengannya, dan berbagai lagi yang kita lakukan untuk membina jambatan hati antara kita dengannya.

Mustahil dia tidak membuka hati mendengar bicara kita.

Apatah lagi, kita berhikmah dengannya.


Satu cerita saya

Saya mempunyai seorang junior yang bercouple. Ya, memang apabila mendengar dia bercouple, hati memang sedih. Namun, Alhamdulillah, saya selama ini menjaga hubungan dengannya. Bahkan berusaha merapatinya serapat yang mungkin. Masa birthday bagi hadiah, lapang-lapang tanya khabar, ada peluang belanja makan, ada masa ziarah rumah dan sebagainya.

Apabila mendengar dia bercouple, saya mengajaknya bersama saya duduk-duduk lepak-lepak. Kami bersembang pelbagai perkara. Bertepuk tampar bersama apabila bercanda. Diam bersama apabila mengenang sesuatu yang mungkin setimental.

Bila melihat peluang yang sesuai mengutarakan isu dia bercouple, saya berkata:

“Ana dengar, enta ada cerita hot”

Dia tersengih. “Apa yang hot-hot ni?”

“Siapa nama Si Dia tu? Timah(bukan nama sebenar)? Senah(bukan nama sebenar)?” Saya bergurau. Sedangkan saya tahu aja nama sebenar couplenya itu.

Dia ketawa. “Umairah(bukan nama sebenar) la bro”

Saya membiarkan dia bercerita itu dan ini berkenaan couplenya. Saya juga menyoal-nyoal beberapa soalan seperti cantik ke? Orangnya macam mana? Asal mana orangnya? Dan begitulah kami bersembang-sembang.

Bila dia berhenti menceritakan couplenya itu, saya berkata kepadanya.

“Enta rasa, orang macam dia, boleh didik anak-anak enta?”

Dia diam. Dan saya berkata: “Ana tak kenal dia. Ana bukan nak hitung couple enta. Ana cuma nak enta yang hitung dia. Enta kenal dia kan? Dah pernah sembang kan? Dah pernah jumpa kan? Cuba enta fikir panjang-panjang.”

Dia tersengih. Diam lama. Kami diam bersama lama malam itu.

Kemudian kami bersembang lagi. Saya membicarakan seputar keredhaan Allah dalam hidup, bagaimana membina keluarga, konsikuensi apabila dasar cinta itu tidak benar dan sebagainya. Dia mendengar dan sekali sekala memberikan pendapat.

Akhirnya dia bersuara: “Ana sebenarnya, rasa tak senang juga dengan benda ni”

Kemudian dia menceritakan ketidak senangannya, keresahannya, kegelisahannya, kerisauannya. Saya membiarkan dia menceritakan semuanya. Dia rupanya buntu mencari jalan keluar dan tak mampu mengeluarkan dirinya dari suasana itu.

Maka saya memberikannya semangat, beberapa tips dan pandangan. Akhirnya…

“Bro, enta bagitahukan mak ana boleh? Kata ana tak couple dah. Esok ana sms dia minta berhentikan hubungan kami” Itu konklusi yang dia buat sendiri.

Dan saya diam sambil tersenyum.

“Kalau enta rasa itu yang terbaik, insyaAllah ana bagitahu mak enta. Mesti dia gembira.”

Itulah cerita saya dengan sahabat saya itu.

Saya kira, kalau selama ini jambatan hati itu tidak saya bina, mustahil dia boleh mendengar apa yang saya utarakan kepadanya pada pukul 3 pagi itu. Pastinya dia boleh memberikan 1001 alasan untuk meninggalkan saya pukul 3 pagi itu. Pastinya dia boleh sahaja memarahi saya agar tidak sibuk dengan urusan peribadinya.

Tetapi jambatan hati+uslub menegur+doa kepada Allah, itu adalah formula yang mustajab.

Sepatutnya, kita mampu melakukan ini. Hal ini kerana kita ‘couple’nya yang halal sebelum dia beristeri atau dalam kes perempuan, dia bersuami.


Penutup: Kita isi hatinya.

Maka di sinilah kita perlu melihat. Jangan hanya pandai menghina kesalahan orang lain. Lebih teruk lagi, meninggalkan sahaja seseorang itu bergelumang di dalam dosa dan kita hanya mengutuknya dari belakang sahaja.

Setiap orang ada masalahnya. Kalau orang jauh, boleh lah kita usahakan tegur dengan artikel dan sebagainya. Tetapi sahabat kita, yang tinggal dengan kita, yang hidup dengan kita, yang sekelas dengan kita, takkan la kita tak boleh usahakan lebih dari sekadar teguran?

Manusia perlukan sentuhan.

Pernahkah kita menyentuh hati dan jiwa sahabat kita? Pernahkah kita isi kekosongan hatinya? Pernahkah kita memimpinnya? Pernahkah kita mengungkapkan kepadanya bahawa kita sayang kepadanya? Dan pernahkah kita membuktikan sayang kita itu kepadanya?

Di sini, kita memerhatikan kembali situasi ini.

“Bagaimana hendak menegur kawan perempuan saya yang bercouple?”

“Kamu bercouple tak dengan kawan kamu itu?”

Kalau sekadar sebut Allah SWT berfirman: “Dan janganlah kamu menghampiri zina, sesungguhnya zina itu adalah satu perbuatan yang keji dan satu jalan yang jahat (yang membawa kerosakan).” Surah Al-Israa’ ayat 32 tu, semua orang boleh bagi.

Persoalannya, siapa yang betul-betul usaha bimbing sahabatnya dalam hal “Dan janganlah kamu menghampiri zina”?

So, sekarang, baik mula couple dengan sahabat sendiri.

Mengisi kelompongan hatinya. Dan insyaAllah, kelompongan hati kita juga terisi.

some | days

some days i want to live
some days i wish it’s over
some days i long to see
some days i wait to die;

some days i think i am fine
some days i believe i have a problem
some days i am strong
some days i am weak;

some days i am closer to truth
some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand
some days i am just lost;

some days i just wish
everything would disappear
some days i just hope
you could be near;

some days i have a feeling
one day everything
will be alright
and that day is closer
than ever;



Thursday, August 12, 2010

long path | short time

a crazy day it was
things that i should not have said
things that i should not have done
had all been said and done
in 5 minutes

i stormed out of the building
with a view to run away
run away to a place where no one can disturb

i wanted to spend 5 minutes alone
i wanted to sit down and think
of what i said
of what i did

riding my bike
with the wind behind me
i rushed into the evening traffic
hoping to set right certain things

blinded by fury
clouded by sadness
i was a maniac on the roads
driving at the speed of light

i sped past everyone
stopping nowhere
i reached my destination
a small little cafe
in the middle of the city

escaping a chaotic and fast paced city
i stepped inside a shangrila
with no one to disturb
with no one seemingly caring a dime
i took my place in the corner
placed my order
and set about thinking
about what i had done

5 minutes all it took
for the gates of heaven to open up
5 minutes of madness
now washed away by 5 minutes of realization

5 minutes it took
to find myself once again
5 minutes is all it took
for me to find life once again

5 minutes of crying out (loud)
is all that was needed
if only i thought about it all
for a mere 5 minutes

a time of sorrow
now washed away in just 5 minutes
a lifetime full of happiness
now back inside me in just 5 minutes

puzzle | shape | of | my | heart

I’ve been down and
I’m wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me
sometimes life is one big puzzle
you wonder why things are so jumbled up
even with all the pieces in hand
you still struggle to put them all together
i try to understand
but wander around too much
to stay in one place
i walked along a path
that i thought i knew it like the back of my mind
with these little black clouds
hovering around
what i knew very well
was hidden behind a veil of darkness
what i once had lots of
has slowly ebbed away
to a mere miniscule
the more i think
the more insane i become
trying to find the path
i slowly fade
into these little black clouds
hoping to find
the path from inside
dont laugh at me
dont look at me
i just want to be me..

whisper of the heart..

a thousand masks
across the world
separated by time
separated by distance
live the same life
as you want them to
monday to sunday
morning to evening
day and night
its the same
same lies
same treachery
for the same love
that you care a dime
i am what i am
i dont want fame
i dont want pity
all i want is love
i am what i am
and nobody else
i am what i am
and not same as everyone else
i am what i am
and not one in a crowd
whereever i go
i know where i stand
i am what i am
i am what i am
i can’t be the one you want
i can’t be the one you dream of
i am not the "hunk"
i am not the "villian"
i am not the one with the "looks"
i am what i am
don’t try and change me
to be the girl of your dreams
i am not the girl
with an identity each day
with a mask for each occasion
with a life for each person
i am what i am
just an ordinary girl
sitting next to you
with a single mask for all occasion
with a single identity every day
with a single life for all
i am what i am
the invisible ordinary girl
and the odd one
with an unique identity.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

my heart says...,..

hi there.. diz is full of meaning.. cekitdout.

Aku Manusia Lemah
Selalu Terjatuh
Berbeda Aku Dari Mu
Kau Berdiri Teguh
Aku Serba Tiada
Aku Kekurangan
Dan Bila Kau Tiba
Aku Hilang Dari Kewujudan

Sempurnanya Sifatmu
Tulusnya Hatimu
Jujurnya Niatmu
Tingginya Kesabaranmu
Lepaskanlah Diriku
Kerna Aku Tak Mampu
Tuk Menanggung
Sebuah Cinta Sempurna
Darimuu
Darimuuu...Oahh...

Bukan Aku Tak Pernah Mengerti Dirimu
Kusanjung Setiap Kata Cinta Kau Berikan Aku
Hilangkan Rasa Itu Akhirkan Semua
Dan Bila Kau Sedar Aku Hilang Dari Kewujudan.. Oooo

Sempurnanya Sifatmu
Tulusnya Hatimu
Jujurnya Niatmu
Tingginya Kesabaranmu
Lepaskanlah Diriku
Kerna Aku Tak Mampu
Tuk Menanggung Sebuah Cinta Sempurna
Darimuu
Darimuuu...Oahh...

feel'in to tell you something..

hai.. today is d second day we're fasting..

berbeze sgt puase di poli n di rumah...
di rumah bangun sahur, umi kejut kn..
di poli, xperlu kejut kn..sbb pas sahur bru tido..huhu..

best..sahur di poli..
sbb x ramai sgt yg turn sahur..
jadinye,,leh lepak kt ctu lme2..
menu wajib time sahur kt poli ialah milo ais..
kalo agak2 xnk bg ngntuk neslo ais lah jd plihan..
mkn plak, ayam goreng mak cik kafe..
tuje yg mampu dkt poli..mane ade kfc..huhuhu
tp best.. panas2.. syok..
rindu jgk ler kdg2 nk duk asrama..
kadang2 je ler..huhuhu

tp kt umh lg best.. mak masak sup.. lg power..
hehee... xkisah la kt mne2 pon..
asalkn kite pandai sesuaikn diri dgn persekitaran.. huhuuhuu

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

BENGANG

Aku bosan dengan cintamu
Aku rasa buang masa
Kau selalu mendustakan cintaku
Aku fikir kau tak searus
Biarkan ku beralih
Biarkan diriku terus bersendiri

Ku tak sanggup engkau setia
Walau jasad dan juga nyawa
Sebagai tanda cintamu padaku katamu


Tak mungkin ku percaya
Kata-kata yang penuh dusta
Hanyalah bibir berkata
Yang memilukan
Menambah bengang rasa hampa
Terus hingga diriku terasa

Cukup berkali kau berkata
Jangan diulang lagi dusta
Jangan kau pujuk hati yang terluka
tak mungkin akan ku kembali
Jika janji sekadar mimpi
Tak mungkin aku sanggup bersama denganmu

Monday, August 9, 2010

what the _________?

adoi.. mlm ni penat sgt.. kul 10 bru smpi umh..ni la padah nye kalo pegi keje naik train, then blik umah mak ambik.. huhu

hurmmm...arini rase mcm ntah le.. rase mcm2.. mrh , kecian, malu, pening, penat, huhu.. penat 2 biase ler.. ni yg tang marah ni har.. ngn tang malu nih.. haihhh...

aku ni dh ler mcm ni.. xtau la knp bdk 2 cari lg. aku dh lyn truk2 pon nk lg.. mcm mne lg nk bt ni.. bt lbh2 kn susah.. dh ler anak orang..

haishhh.. tolong ler phm.. penat dh...(T-T) aku ni student lg.. memerlukan mase yg pnjg utk bfikir hal hal berkaitan kehidupan dlm bidang seni kehidupan. jadinye.. so,..
haaa~ fhm2 ler sdri.. jgn dikaitkn kehidupan pribadi sdri dgn org lain..
itu adalah amaln yg tidak baik.. kalau ye pon nk mtak tlg org lain agak2 ler.. huhu... agak agak la yep.. hurmmm,,..

kata kata yang indah
yang kamu lontar kan
tidak sedikit pon mencair kan iceberg yang membeku di sudut hati..
jage lah ibadat kamu,,
jagelah ape yang perlu di utamakan..
hal2 yang lain,.
biarkan mase yang menentukan...
tidak ade gunanye merancang sesuatu yang belum pasti...
kejar akhirat,
kejar architecture..
then.. the time will come. u dont need 2 kejar it..
bcoz kalo dh jdoh x lari ke mane..
hurmmm....

Sunday, August 8, 2010

a cup of tea...

hai... salam petang, have a cup of tea, with biskut kering jacobs + nutella on top.. what a nice day..

cuaca yg agak terang di putrajaya.. a nice day to have shoot..but, i prefer to stay at my sweet home with my mummy..
die tgh tanda kertas latihan drawing skolah teknik kl..huhu..
best gak kacau umi ni..hahaha..(sy suka mrh umi bile bg student die mrkh tggi wlpn dwg slh) huhuhuhu

hurmm... hari ni..there's someone who's trying to mtk maaf from me.. but i do maafkn die.. tetapi susah nk rapat ngn die lg dh.. bcoz i hate liar..

so, harap die fhm..and juz lalui hidup anda seperti biase..

jgn difikirkn tentang cinta,
kerana cinta badan binasa..

we are too young to think about diz matter,..


chill beb~

Saturday, August 7, 2010

writing for my heart...

hi there.. diz is my second blog.. i wrote it bcoz juz 2 share with you about the life of being single is better then couple..**wink..

i love being single AT DIZ TIME bcoz..
i can do whatever i want,
i can meet whoever i want,
i can shopping whenever i want,
i can talk with everyone i want...

so... people out there.. please stop it..
dont meng"usha" me anymore..
bcoz.. AT DIZ TIME will never accept whoever want me!!

budaya berCOUPLE semase remaja semakin membuak2..=D

sedangkan.. sigh***


lom tentu 2 jodoh kite..

so..for me..

im trying to not to bercouple at this time..

im trying to not to ikut sgt style remaja yg suke couple skrg..

bcoz.. i realize that im not matang yet..haha..

yeaaa~ my frens who know me.. they know who DINA is..

im not perfect.. im just a little girl hunting for better life.. =)